Bottled up inside
There is however somthing I have been meaning to discuss. I have some time this afternoon so I thought it was time.
I can let loose and be a pretty crazy gy. But for the most part when it comes to dealing with anyone except my closest friends I like to present myself as a prefessional, well manered and respectable person.
SO when something awesome happens, that is totally brag and show off worthy, that would amaze, infatuate, and impress people I get put into a bit of a pinch. I WANT to brag, I want to make people jealous, but at the same time i don't want to be a jerk. What I have to brag about is not really all that appropriete to just go around talking about to just anybody. Some of the things i want to talk about would distress/disgust/upset people, and would deffiently make them look at me differantly...and maybe like me less. I actualy have only 2 people that I am able to brag to. One I barely ever talk to 'cause the O Dogg is always busy working on the road.
Its like I am 2 people. Now I know everyone has differant sides., but mine are like night and day.
Dr. Jekyl and Mr. Hyde if you will.
I AM a wild and crazy person who has some insanly crazy adventures who does things that many people don't even think of. and I do things that others consider "un proper" and such.
and I AM a presentable, respecatble, mature person.
how the Hell do you deal with somthing like that?
Its hard, cause some times I come REALLY close to slipping up and saying the wrong thing to the wrong people.
So I am stuck being two people, and it sucks, why cant I just be one person all the time?
So yeah, I have done something awesome, but I can't openly talk about my awesomenes....GRRR